Here is an article I found that speaks directly to how I have been feeling. The past few days as I have been catching up on my blog where I originally started it (Blogger.com) and then moved it to this site, the more I write about H the more convinced I am that he is my Twin. Then I read this article and boy let me tell you I have experienced everything the author of this post talks about.
I have tried and tried and tried some more to forget about H and our relationship. The more I try to forget the more signs I see that relate to him or our relationship. Not anything that could be interpreted as a relationship with someone else but only my relationship with him. Those signs for me include: Someone posted a photo and story about a cat on Facebook. The headline read "My Angel CC". That is significant because he always called me "My Angel" and he never referred to me as Carolyn but by my initials which happen to be CC. Now what are the chances of that?? Then there are other signs like 11:11 or 888, those were both numerical signs that we shared as in we were both seeing them a lot in our time together and I would figure as I see them still even though we are not presently communicating, it's possible and very likely he's seeing them too. Then there are a couple of songs that he sent me the videos of like "Unchained Melody" and a couple of others that I seem to persistently come across. I have read quotes on other Facebook posts that were exactly word for word something he said to me. Everything I read about Twin Flames brings him to mind and not Rob.
The smell of Jasmine is a constant reminder of my time with him because one night while we were chatting online I caught the scent of something beautiful but I didn't know where it was coming from. I didn't have on perfume and there was nothing in the room that would smell like that. I remember him asking me what was wrong as he could see me looking around on webcam. I told him that I could smell something beautiful but I didn't know what the scent was or where it was coming from. He said "it's Jasmine" and I looked at him surprised, and asked "how would you know that?" and he said "because I can smell it too". Twin Flames can do that, experience the same things, even though separated by many many miles upon this earth as he and I are. The Twin Flame connection is extraordinary and is not shared with another.
In my quest to forget him, to ease my pain, I have watched many many TV shows that I have bought the seasons of. I'm not much of a TV watcher normally but when the pain is intense and I need some relief from the thoughts and memories of him then I will lose myself in my latest show. Even that doesn't always work because in an episode of Charmed that I was watching, a detective tells the girls that he's investigating witches in San Francisco (where the girls are), Barbados (where H lives) and Newfoundland (where I live). Now I ask you, what are the chances of that???
It is true that you work on yourself as part of all this too. I have learned many new things, some new skills I didn't know I possessed. My spiritual path has grown and even changed some as I grow spiritually and emotionally. I have discovered new interests. I have read many many books on Twin Flames and the spiritual path I'm following. I have met some great people from all over the world who have Twins and I have made some lasting friendships with some of them. There is so much more but I think you get the idea, lol.
Meeting your Twin Flame forever changes your life. There is no going back and no forgetting what you have learned and experienced. There is no other relationship like it on or off the planet. You only have one Twin and once you have loved and been loved in this relationship, no other relationship will ever do. There will always be a bond, a connection between you. You will always be aware of him or her even after long periods of silence.
All I have to do is close my eyes and focus on him and it's all right there. If I get nothing else from writing these posts, it has helped me to put my own thoughts and feelings in order. The doubt is gone. H is my true Twin Flame.
Enjoy the article below.
Blessings of Light!
Synchronicity with Twin Flames When They Split
I first learned about a 'twin flame' relationship through happenstance in a different relationship. The goal of this site is to provide insight and help to others who ...
I struggled most of the day today to figure out how to write this blog. We all know that right before and/or when you meet your twin flame, synchronicity is at work. Everything from 11-11, the signs (which you can view on many of my previous posts), soul recognition, etc; but what if you and your twin flame are currently caught up in the dance, where the runner twin has exited for the time being? Where is the synchronicity there? What are the signs from the Universe that gives the "Chaser" or "Awakened" twin the constant confirmation (or maybe even the "Runner" twin), putting it constantly in the forefront of their minds? The Universe is at work here, folks. It's never for nothing.
As a twin myself, here are some of the signs I've experienced:
- Their name pops up on signage, billboards, advertisements;
- Songs you shared together keep coming on. (Since my psychic abilities have increased, even when I start to think of a song and change the station, that song comes on.);
- The things they like, food, places, etc. keep popping up;
- Due to increased psychic abilities, you are able to feel them and discern the different between yourself and your twin. This can be later confirmed;
- You are able to visualize and yes, even see what your twin is doing. Keep track of the days/time; When you are together again, you can confirm;
- You can feel your twin. I felt when he'd have moments of anger (at the situation), sadness, etc;
- When you try to move on, to push them away from your memory, something always happens to bring them back into the forefront of your mind; whether it's something small, like someone wearing their perfume/cologne scent, or you thought you saw them/someone who looks identical driving/walking by;
Every story is different, but the point I'm trying to make is: Sometimes we will feel like we just want to give up, it's too hard, it's too complicated - We start to grow numb, throw ourselves into our work, we watch more TV, surround ourselves with people to keep busy; DO ANYTHING so that time passes by and you DON'T think about them, tire yourself out at the gym so that when you do come home, you collapse into a heap on the bed and just sleep. But you'll notice, the more you try to forget, the more you try to move on, the more apparent it becomes, the more signs you see. Remember, you were predestined to be together. Your futures, your path, dictated by a greater being. You've done this dance many, many times before in different lifetimes.
So, what do you do? The only thing you can do is try not to escape it. Embrace it for what it is. Does that mean bothering the runner? No. That will only make them run, much faster, and farther. You'll only be impeding the eventual reunion. Work on yourself. You have to remember this is a spiritual path with your soul partner. You cannot throw this relationship into the realm of romance (though there is plenty of it). It's a SOUL connection. During this time, you'll start asking questions like, "What am I here for?" "What is my duty to mankind?" "What is my purpose?" - It's the path to enlightenment, to becoming the person you were meant to be. You have to revel in that. The same for your twin. They have to come into their selves and become the person they were meant to become, and some people cannot grow with you there. Some must do the soul searching on their own, in their own time. They'll come back to you when they are ready. There is no escaping that. You cannot escape your other half.
They say the Great Creator gave his greatest battles to his toughest soldiers; You are one of his toughest soldiers. Accept it, believe in the Universe and that everything happens in it's own time and for the right reasons. It dulls the great pain (believe me, it is just that, a GREAT pain) that you feel inside.
You two cannot be together unless you are TWO WHOLE SOULS. One cannot depend on the other for happiness, there is no codependency. You don't need your twin for your sense of self.
In the meantime, take these little signs not as nuisances. Just smile when they do happen. It's just the Universe telling you, "Hang in there, everything in due time." And after all, these little reminders only serve as a sort of confirmation, right? It warms the heart, makes you realize that what you had was real, was true. And most importantly, extremely rare.